"If you get caught, you'll forgive me..." My husband's gambling habit that I've been worried about since before marriage. While feeling anger and anxiety at the foolishness of spending not only living expenses but also childbirth expenses on pachinko, he decided to support himself for the sake of his children and decided to go part-time. I want to leave the father's existence to the child, but... it's frustrating to go around in circles and not come up with an answer. Two years of sexless, it may be over as a couple ... The married woman set out on a journey in search of an answer.