My good-natured brother was loved by both my mom and dad, and I, who was poorly-made, felt alienated. But... I should have been able to endure it because my brother was kind to me... At some point, my older brother violated me every day and began to perform sex processing as a public toilet. When my dad saw it, he scolded me saying, ``You must have been cheating anyway,'' and for some reason my lower half of my body was waking up. And Papa also forced me to hold it in my mouth ... My relationship with Papa changed greatly. A forced break begins, and my voice begging for forgiveness reaches no one.